Oh, do I know how that feels!
The question of "Isn't being a mom so great?" was somewhat rhetorical. I was asking the question because some days, I still struggle answering that question. Some days I have just yelled at my son Oskar or I just want time to read whatever online, and I can't even think because of the noise in my house.
This can be such a hard thing to do, because there are so many things I want to do... but selflessness is a must in this thing called Mommahood.
God has also shown me recently that I have been looking for another place in this world for purpose. I want something more than being a mother. I want belonging and identity somewhere else besides the home. I want other people besides my children to want or need me. For me, this has included many things like: selling handmade cards, getting over-involved in a group, pursuing or looking into being a sales rep in a variety of companies, and even... blogging (yes, I said it.)
I have found myself busy doing many things, trying to be me; the "me" that is there somewhere... was there, when my children were not here yet. But my children have been given to me now, and that means my mission for life- my purpose has changed.
Although having me time is super important in order to have renewal and sanity, I want it to be just that- me time. Not, I'm on a search to find something other than mothering these children!
Being a mom is a hard job- no doubt. We were called to a tremendous purpose and calling. It requires selflessness and hard work. But regardless, it is a calling- one that we were designed and blessed to do.
I think there is a time in a woman's life, when God does give us more than one purpose- like a working mom, or a woman with other responsibilities, a calling of another sorts. But now, is not my time for other things. My mission is to be a partner in life to my husband, supporting him in ministry, to train and raise up my three children, and start homeschooling this month with my oldest Oskar.
If I am not willing to do the one thing God has for sure placed in my life, how can He trust me with other things?
Although there are many moms out there doing the same mundane things day in and day out, it's a wonderful thing. I don't need to be unique and find success in anything else because I don't want God to say one day, I gave you this really important job of raising these children. I entrusted them to you... and it wasn't good enough in your eyes... you had to go find something less important to give you temporary satisfaction and a false sense of purpose.
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